Putting It Out There

For about a year the bathroom scale has been fluctuating between the same 3-5 pounds. Up down, up down. Believe me, there have been no complaints from me about that. It’s all part of weight maintenance. That’s my main goal … just maintain and keep the weight off this time!

However, over the last couple of months, that fluctuation has only gone up … with no “back down.” It’s not a lot, but it is still concerning to me and it’s the reason for this post. I’m hoping that by putting it out there in the universe will somehow give me the strength to reel it back in and get back in control.

I started a new job this year and these people have no idea where I’ve come from or my journey to get here. Food is everywhere, I often find myself over indulging because I know these new co-workers are not judging me or questioning my choices.

I know I have to take ownership of my own decisions, but I still find it sad that I can’t just have a couple of Hershey Kisses or a small cookie without seeing evidence of it on the scale. I guess the most disappointing part is that I cannot say NO to these small goodies or really any food that is offered to me.

The only strategy that has worked for me is to completely avoid any temptation. I don’t buy any junk food or goodies for home. Each morning I pack myself a great lunch including healthy snacks for the day, all with the calorie count in mind while also keeping in mind what I will have for dinner that night. Everything is counted for ahead of time, right down to the exact calorie. The problem starts when someone says “there are cookies in the breakroom” or “who wants something from Starbucks?” or “go with me to the cafeteria to see what they got.”

At one time, not so long ago, I was able to say no most of the time, but lately I can never say no. I think it may be time for me to let these new co-workers in on my recent weight loss. Not because they are my problem but because it may help keep me accountable and more comfortable declining goodies that are offered.

Proving and Improving Myself

Last year proved to be an extremely productive year for me. I started the year 70 pounds down from my original start weight and I begun my first full year of weight loss maintenance. But there was still more to achieve in 2018.

At the age of 48, I completed my studies at community college and received my Associates Degree in Accounting. Although, I playecapd it off to family and friends, claiming that it wasn’t a big deal, it definitely was. I am very proud to add a college degree to my recent accomplishments.

Over the summer I received my certification as a Personal Trainer. That course was certainly no easy task, but I really wanted to legitimize my weight loss and my continued fitness journey to myself. I want to share everything I’ve learned with everyone I come in contact with. I want to shout it from the roof tops …. I’VE LOST 70 POUNDS AND I’M A CERTIFIED PERSONAL TRAINER! LET ME HELP YOU!

But, what I’m learning along the way is, not everyone cares. Some people are not ready to make a lifestyle change. I know for most people they just don’t know how or where to begin. That is where I want to help. If I’m being truthful, approaching people in a helpful and tactful way and being sensitive to people’s feelings is not my forte. I come across as bossy or talking down to people or sometimes bragging about my own success. This is the #1 area I need to work on. I want my loved ones to know I love them and I just want to help. I guess it’s best to wait until someone asks for help, rather than trying to force unwanted information on them.